2025- the year I let go of control.
For so long, I misunderstood my spiritual path as a way to better, improve and perfect myself and my gifts. But with care and attention (and more living! ah!) I've understood it’s deeper truth; my spiritual path is not about control at all. My healing is of spirallic nature. Through it all, it’s been a journey of remembership, a reclamation of my divine feminine roots, of feeling intensely and intently and through these rumbles and dances - my gifts have found me and not the other way around.
In my life, in moments when I’ve let go of control, I’ve become a container for something that was beyond me. Times in my life when I’ve surrendered my goals, times when I’ve burnt the scripts; this is when I’ve created SPACE for the divine to move through me. This has required me relentlessly going back to my years intentions (my word of the year) and spiritual courage to embody (not just “think”it) “letting go”. When I’ve stopped wanting all the answers and instead I have willingly SHOWED UP to the revelations at hand.
Ten years ago, I was given the death of my son Tommy. For so long- I didn’t want what was given to me. I resisted it. I tried looking away from it. I went to great lengths for it to not be my life. It didn’t take me long to realize that all this effort I was taking to suppress my pain was keeping me separate from my inner radiance, my aliveness, my life. Will I ever “master” grief? I doubt it. But can I show up for it repeatedly and let it teach me? Absolutely. I can be of service to it.
Being of service to my inner light is the essence of letting go. The death of my son was given to me, don’t you see? My willingness to serve my grief energizes my life, makes me feel invincible, empowered and in that way - WHOLE. Making my karma, my dharma, I have become robust, resilient and bold. I’m also softer, tender and more malleable. Making way to what was given to me (my karma), my life’s purpose (my dharma) reveals itself slowly and victoriously.
As we start a new year, it’s important to claim what you will be in service for this year. In a way, our daily rituals of breath, movement and creativity help clear us, purge, purify and make us ready for service; your attentiveness, your awareness and empathy for others, even your presence in light is anchored in that service. While your rituals “appear” to be selfish, this couldn’t be further from the truth- your light is a service to others, don't you ever forget it!
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Stay in service of your light, always.
E. xo